Do you remember the line in Titanic, when the old Rose said ‘Waiting to die, waiting to live… waiting for an absolution…. that would never come’? I think about that line a lot. The concept of waiting for absolution in life is one that makes me wonder about the essence of life itself.
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I am a well-settled Atheist, if you didn’t already know, so I see life in a very linear, almost analytical perspective and it leads to dilemmas in my thought processes. Thoughts such as love, desire, passion, hate, fear, loathing etcetera. People believe that love is something that cannot be explained by science; seeing it as a kind of proof that there is more to life than the sum of our experiences. I see love somewhat differently. While I don’t question the narcotic and infectious nature of love, I do question the ‘spiritual’ nature that is implied. To quote Stan Marsh, ‘Can’t it be the reason to how and not why?’. He is right. Love is a chemical reaction in your brain, coupled with the synapse response, what you experience as love is very real, and can be explained by science. Does that take away the appeal and so-called ‘magical’ nature of love for me? Not in the slightest. Knowing it’s a chemical reaction doesn’t make me feel less about the person I love. It makes me understand that it’s a real concept.
Back to my point about absolution; as I am currently not ‘in love’ with someone, the experience of life seems somewhat lacking. I have spent a good portion of my twenties in and out of love and the sum total of which has resulted in me being miserable for seven years. This year, it will be all about to change. My focus is on travel, adventure and essentially getting the most out of the short time on this planet, and love at present is a secondary consideration. This is not to say if an amazing woman came along that shared my passion for life, had common interests, and could make me laugh, that I wouldn’t consider a possible relationship. That would be another adventure. But as for love, well I honestly will be trying to avoid it this year. The absolution of love; feeling so locked up in passion and desire that the true nature of life slips by, is an amazing thing, but, I don’t want it to disappear again. The next time I fall in love, will be the last.
This is what it looks like when you run head-first into rendered concrete.
Of course, this does not take into account the true nature of love… Everything I iterated above is subject to change without notice.
Happy new year everybody. 2009 will be fantastic and I look forward to seeing you all along the way, reading your thoughts and living life to the pinnacle. I hope you enjoy the photo taken of me with a somewhat impressive-looking blunt-force trauma. Before you ask, yes I am fine, and yes, I was a bit of a douche for doing it. This is why you should be careful. ttfn
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